"No one is ever too far gone to be transformed by God"
Before
Several years ago, while I was in High School, I was saved by the Grace of God. I felt that though I was saved, my relationship with God had to be only in church or behind closed doors. I felt that if I was the live the way real Christians do, then I would be missing out of some one the most important years of my life. Looking back now, yes I was missing out on those important days. The days that I could have spread the word on the good Lord and man a true impact on another persons' life.
I used to be part of a quiz team that would go to tournaments to compete on gospels of the bible. Yep, I was pretty darn good but when I looked around me what was I truly gaining? I mean it didn't make me have friends or be popular. Being close to god wasn't really changing too much on the outside of my body. So I turned away. I graduated High School, chose a different path than what I intended too, and ended up having 2 children out of wedlock with a boy that never had a bright future for himself let alone a family. After 4 years we split. I was a 20 year old, single mom of 2 daughters, went through the death of a child, living at home with my mom, unsure of what my own future would look like let alone the future of two innocent girls.
There were people that grave me weekend breaks and allowed me to live life as if I wasn't a mother for two days a week. I turned to alcohol, parties, and clubs. I knew that my children were in good hands so I thought it was okay for me to do the things people my own age were doing. As a result, I have more memories of what started to be good nights, rather than how they ended and waking up not knowing what really happened.
After 2 years of living this lifestyle I, met the man I now call my husband. He helped me to change who I was. He made me want to be a better parent, a better person. He took in my daughters as if they were his own flesh and blood and never hesitated. He was and continues to be the man I always thought I would end up with. We have a little boy together and it seems like, he was the missing piece to our puzzle.
After
After attending church with my husbands' family, I felt that I was thriving to know more about God and to live the way that he did. After every church service, I felt the need to actually go out and help someone but I didn't know how or what do really do.
Over the course of about a year, I have felt the good Lord tugging at my heart. I couldn’t walk into a church without crying or fighting back the tears so my husband wouldn’t think I was a complete mess. Christian music was embedded in me, I just felt that in order to feel a little better about my day I could just turn on good ole 106.9 and the upliftingness of the songs would just brighten my darkest days. It wasn’t until I turned on that station and I had to actually pull over because I was sobbing, and everyone knows sobbing and driving just don't mix. I knew that it was my time to make a difference in my life. Not just for me but for my kids and my husband; even people that I didn’t have a direct relationship with. but yet again, I kinda put it on the back burner again. Then this lovely, very mature, and great woman (my sister in law) kept pushing me to come and try out Revolution Church. I again put it off for some time until a Women’s Conference came one weekend. I mean the sign said that they had chocolate and prizes, so what girl wouldn’t go to something like that? When I left that night I felt something that I hadn’t in a long time. I felt full, lifted, I had to notion to do something for someone, and I mean it was just the best story that I just had to run home and tell my husband.
I have been attending church regularly now since April and I must say that I have never felt this full in my life. I realized that it was my time to be where I am today. God used my past struggles to lead me to him again and to want to stay as close as possible. He showed me that through tragedy, there are better things in life. I had to walk down a road of emptiness to get where I truly needed to be. God is truly amazing and its by his Saving Grace that I am new today!
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