Who are you trusting now-a-days?

So the past few weeks I've felt a little distant to the world. With going back to college my focus has been solely on making an amazing gpa by face planting in my studies every night, and what little time I have left, dividing it between one-on-one time with my kids and husband. This morning I woke up and realized just how distant I've become. I make conversations with friends short, I get through everyone else's needs super quick so that I can focus on my studies, and I've not been as devoted to God like I should be. See the crazy thing is, I went back to school because I knew God was telling me to do more, yet I find myself not as devoted?
 While trying to fall back asleep after doing my early morning motherly duties, it hit me. Heather, God sent to back to school to make a difference, but how are you showing him any glory by doing so? You're not spreading his greatness, you're putting lesser things before more important things, you're time away from outside relationships isn't cutting it and you've got to set boundaries. Another thing that I've noticed is I'm not spreading the word of God to everyone around me as much as I was. I felt like being positive in front of people was having more of a negative impact than an actual positive one. I mean I flood my Facebook and instagram with inspirational things, but I feel like I'm getting on everyone's nerves, and that they're just sick of seeing it. But then again it hit me like a ton of bricks. If I loose 20 "friends" over being positive and putting God in the lime light, but bring one person closer to him, then why should I care what others think? I mean that's what being a Christian is right? Showing how God has changed your life, bring people closer to him, and then figuring out how you can bring him glory?
  See it took me missing a Sunday sermon, a chance to serve our community, and a life group to really notice my short comings. How being more concerned about making good grades by myself, rather than trusting that the one that positioned me to this place, isn't really working out for me and that I don't carry the weight of the world on my shoulders; someone actually does that for me.
 If I continue my obedience and ask for direction, God will provide a way to make things happen. It's easy to get caught up with things you feel are important, to fall back and think you have to control the outcome of situations, and to think you have to be a super hero to get daily tasks done, but you don't. Our heavenly father is here to take our disbelief away, to be our weight carrier, and to be the one who will bring us through even the toughest of situations. God doesn't put things in your life to make you struggle without cause. Trust that whatever may come your way, that God's plan and purpose is above all things and if he can bring you to a situation, not only will he bring you through it but it's for a reason. Trust and have faith.. God will lead the way!!